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MY EmPTy LiFE ...

When I was in pre-school ...
I wish that I could go to primary school ...
Have a lot of friends ...
Cycling to school ...
Fun!

When I was in a primary school ...
I wish to go to a boarding school ...
I wish that I could be a hero ...
Have a lot of friends ...
A lot of admirers ...

When I was in a secondary school ...
I wish to become a good student ...
Have a chance to go to elite school ...
Success ...
A lot of admirers ...
Going abroad before the age of 27 ...
and ... I want to study abroad ...

When I was in matrix ...
I wish to go to university ...

When I was in university ...
I wish that I will not be jobless for a long time ...
Grad on time ...
and ... being employed in good company ...

Before grad ...
I received a scholarship to study abroad ...
Offer to work in multinational company ...

Now ...
I achieve almost every wish I made ...
but then ... Im lost!

Im thinking, my happiness ends here?
Or do I need to sing the Wali Band song: Cari Jodoh

I wonder ...

Comments

  1. Mr FinalJuly 13, 2010 at 6:26 PM

    hooohoo~.. this poem kinda Cool! :D

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  2. Mohd HazaruddinJuly 13, 2010 at 8:46 PM

    fifi,

    im lost in my own world ...

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  3. daliliJuly 13, 2010 at 9:44 PM

    sometimes it is good to be in our own blues but on certain occasion you need to open your eyes, your heart and your soul to people surround you..then only you will feel calm and chill..erm, may be your soulmate is just near with you, just the matter of you not realize it yet.. cheer :)

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  4. yasmin mat nazriJuly 14, 2010 at 9:24 AM

    salam... hehe mula2 rasa cam feel gak baca, tp ending takleh blah... ada ke nak nyanyi lagu Wali Band plak dah...muda lagi la kamu tu, baru 25...kalau dah 35 agak sesuai la kot :p neway it's not the end of ur life ok...mungkin awak rasa lost sbb hampir kesemua yg awak nak buat dalam hidup dah dapat.. rasanya patut pikir n plan matlamat lain kot.. supaya awak ada keje nak capai pulak :D hidup mesti ada matlamat dan perancangan...jgn risau, ni mungkin dugaan utk kamu ye, bersyukur sangat2 sbb awak dpt apa yg awak nak... ada org kat luar sana masih terkejar2 impian dorang...take ur time, cari semula diri anda ye ;) jgn lupa cari petunjuk yg Maha Satu... wassalam

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  5. hadyJuly 14, 2010 at 12:16 PM

    hazard,
    well i think ada satu benda yang kamu dah salah (or at least i think kamu dah salah)
    and thats the reason why, ko rasa ada something is missing

    it is not the DESTINATION that matter, it is the JOURNEY.

    yes, we all need to have target and aim, but at the same time - you need to enjoy your journey. then your life will be more lively, happy and meaningful.

    just my two cents

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  6. Mohd HazaruddinJuly 14, 2010 at 12:22 PM

    Dear Dalili n Yasmin,

    Thanks for your comments, anyway, saya tulis mende alah ni, bila saya tetibe rasa boring yang amat sangat ... rasa macam hilang fokus ...

    Pasal ending Wali Band: Cari Jodoh ... actually, its not the main point here ... I didnt really think of it at the moment ...

    But then, from the poem tuh, I think that I might consider a new life, I mean a new 'stage' of my life ... so I might have something to focus ...

    Well, yeah Yasmin, Im only 25 ...
    Need to check back my 'target' list ...
    Dalili, yes! Kadang2 ada jek depan mata kita, kadang2 kita nampak, tapi die pulak buat bodoooo ...

    In a nutshell: Take time, relax and find a new me!

    Assalamualaikum ...

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  7. Mohd HazaruddinJuly 14, 2010 at 12:22 PM

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  8. Mohd HazaruddinJuly 14, 2010 at 12:32 PM

    hady,

    thanks!
    mungkin saya terlalu melihat cermin belakang semasa memandu ...

    but then hady,
    im not that patience
    to reach my destination ...

    thats why most of the time I took flight from Kuala Lumpur to Kota Bharu (vice versa) instead of bus ...
    55 minutes VS 7 hours ...

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